By Subhash K. Jha, Indo-Asian News Service
Mumbai, April 30 (IANS) Saif Ali Khan, who was rushed to hospital in
February after he complained of chest pain, has sent off a letter to all his
producers saying that he is fully recovered but will not work on Sundays
"I'm hundred percent fine. But strictly forbidden from smoking, and
even if I wasn't, I'm smart enough to know smoking is damaging my
health," Saif told IANS.
Saif dismisses as "absolute rubbish" the rumour that he has started
"Am I crazy to start after I've quit? See, the first three weeks is really
tough for anyone who wants to quit. Once you get over that phase, you're
home and free. Luckily, I was in hospital and under medication for those
three weeks. By the time I came out of the hospital the addiction was
Saif did suffer the usual withdrawal symptoms, like the trembling of the
hands, in the hospital.
"But it wasn't that bad either. The real ordeal starts now. When I'm in a
bar watching friends smoke, the urge is bound to hit me. I wouldn't call
quitting smoking a sacrifice. It was a necessity.
"I've been in hospital and I had a very strong motivation to give up
smoking. Either I quit, or I'll fall ill again. I almost had a heart attack
because of my smoking. Other people have probably just heard about how
bad smoking is. I know."
He pauses to think about what he has gone through.
"Smoking adds to the chances of your falling sick. It's like adding a
bottle of whiskey to fast driving. That's what my cardiologist compares
At the moment, Saif's cardiologist is almost a divine figure in his
"I wasn't afraid when I fell ill. I've always had a fatalistic attitude to
life... never store it up, because you never know what's going to happen
tomorrow. I want to enjoy the day. It might be all over tomorrow. Anything
can happen at any time.
"If you look around you, you're bound to be petrified by what you see
and hear. I mean, some kid falls out of the window and I say, 'Thank god
mine are safe.' Every day that passes without something awful happening to
me and my family, is a blessing."
Saif does worry about his kids and their future, more now than
"I do spend more concentrated and focused time with my children
after my illness. That was possible because I've been at home. But look,
it's a beautiful world. And most people are nice to me.
"Unless I'm stupid, or expect too much and mess it up, there's nothing
for me to feel scared about. I want to approach my work and private life
with a mixture of confidence and humility. If a relationship doesn't work
out, who knows it may work out the next time."
He sighs and takes a deep breath.
"Inshallah, I'm getting good offers. Now I know whom to work with
and whom not to... I feel a whole new phase starting. I've started exercising
again. I don't want to work too hard. I never have. I don't want to burn